I know, I know. I’m terrible at keeping in touch. Online and in real life. With anything really, except my family and my day job, I am mostly unreliable.
So it’s been a long time… a long time since I’ve posted anything, and a long time since I’ve written anything new. I’m still mired in the mental blockage of edits on #DemonDays and I’ve been 139% blocked on writing any new stories or making any headway on anything outside of the occasional publishing work for Coffin Hop Press.
But today I wrote some new stuff. It’s just a couple of poems, but it’s a start.
The first one is below. It’s a little rough. Certainly not much of a valentine.
The other one turned out more in tune with the proposed spirit of the holiday, but that one is for her eyes only. Unless you know her, then she’ll probably share.
In any case. Here’s the first real new words in a year or more. Let’s hope this is the leak that causes the levee to break.
BEEN SO LONG
– A.R. Howerton
It’s been so long
Since I’ve given my words to you
Without reproducing and redacting
Reconsidering for recompense
Carving finer and sanding smooth
For the whole wide world
That will happen
To these words too
If there’s enough of them
To fill a page
Or use as kindling
They’re only for you
At least until the next chance I get
To sell my soul
For a moment’s delusion
That I’m full of talent
That I’m full of light that shines out on the world
That I’m worth their time
And their money
Convincing only myself
That any of it matters at all
When the only thing that truly matters